Today I found out that the one couple in my family I was convinced would be together forever split up. They are still youmg people, have been together since they were 14 years old and have been in a relationship for about 10 years now. They got married in July last year, built this amazing house together from scratch and apparently, now it's all over...
Honestly, I have no idea why this is hitting me so hard. I guess it's because part of me still believes, or at least wants to believe that true love is still out there, that is still exists, maybe in a parallel universe somewhere. The hilarity of it all is that I used to feel this way about my parents. Their relationship, or at least the one I thought they had for most of my life, was everything I aspired, everything I wanted 'when I grew up'. They divorced 2 years ago after nearly 30 years together. The couple in question here are relatives as well, and the hilarity of it all was that my parents both gave me the news at the same time. My mum was telling me over facebook, and whilst we were chatting, my dad phoned me to tell me the exact same thing. Family... It's a bizarre, yet wonderful thing sometimes and it never fails to amaze me. It made me laugh for a minute. Maybe deep down, we're still in sync somehow, and there is still some kind of connection there between us.
When I really allow myself to think about this, the idea of the 'happily ever after' has somewhat lost its credibility along the road of growing up. I am the kind of girl that had her kids names picked out since she was 10, and who already knows what song she wants to be the first dance at her wedding. Reality, sadly, has turned out quite differently. Reality is being single for 6 years now and holding out for all the wrong people. And just when I manage to convince myself that being alone really isn't all that bad after all, that I should enjoy it and just be patient because one day, I will meet that special person and be like that couple, out of the blue a day like this comes along.
No really... Am I just holding out for a dream here? Because Lord knows, in moments like this, it's really hard to still believe in true love, let alone that it might still find me...
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